
Four and a half years ago, my family and I returned from an intensive nine-month ministry trip to Israel, moved to the Atlanta area and began looking for a new church home. We ended up here at Victory…and this was no accident. Even though we didn’t realize how much this was the case at the time, God’s hand was all over it. We had no idea how he was going to use the ministry we would receive at Victory to change our lives. He is so good!
You see, prior to our time in Israel, we had lived in Tulsa, Oklahoma, where we had given up a pretty comfortable life, including great jobs, a nice home and an awesome church family, in order to follow the Holy Spirit’s leading to go to Israel. God mightily confirmed and miraculously provided for us to go in a number of ways, including helping us get renters in our house and a monthly financial support base.
But, as we neared the end of our assignment there, all our support dried up inexplicably. When it was time to come back home, we were completely out of money. We didn’t even have enough to purchase our plane tickets back to the States. And, despite the fact that the Lord had provided for all our needs throughout our time there, somewhere in the process, we stopped trusting him completely, started believing our circumstances and fell for the lie that we’d just have to take care of things ourselves…meaning, we decided to buy the tickets with our credit card.
Over the next year or so, this misguided decision led to many more just like it. When we “needed” to rent a truck to move our stuff from Tulsa to Atlanta, but didn’t have the money, we put it on credit. When our daughter was born and we didn’t have enough money to buy diapers, we put it on credit. When we “needed” to buy Christmas presents – not just for our kids, but for our extended family as well – we put it on credit. When we didn’t have enough money to pay our mortgage…yup, we put that on credit too. And on and on we went down this slippery slope until we were drowning in debt.
The thing is, we knew better. We knew we were headed in the wrong direction the whole time, but we just kept thinking things were going to get better soon. “If we can just get through this week, or month or season,” we kept telling ourselves, “then we’ll stop using the credit cards.” Except, things didn’t get better. We kept crying out to God, saying that we trusted him completely – I think we actually fooled ourselves into thinking that was true – but still, we kept using the credit cards.
In the midst of all this, even though we were living in the Atlanta area, renting a house here that was a good bit more than we could realistically afford, we still owned a home in Tulsa that we had rented out to others rather than try to sell when we came back from Israel. This seemed to be working out okay for a while, but then, as interest rates climbed, our mortgage payment began to skyrocket. (When we purchased the home, a few years before, we foolishly agreed to an 80/20 mortgage and credit line because we didn’t have money for a down payment. Although the rate on the mortgage was fixed, the credit line was adjustable.) And with that, our rental income no longer covered our payments, taking us even further down the hole.
Then, when our renters bailed on us and trashed the house, I thought we were completely ruined. Actually, we should have been, but my dad had compassion on us, met us in Tulsa, gave us the thousands of dollars to do the repairs and, along with one of his brothers, helped us get the house into sellable condition. So we put the house on the market, hoping we’d be able to get a good price for it and make a sizeable dent in our debt. Two weeks after that, however, the news began to report the beginning of the housing market crash. We could hardly get anyone to even look at the house, let alone get a buyer.
Yet, even at the same time as it seemed like the world was crashing down around us, God kept calling out to us to trust him completely, cut up the credit cards and stop trying to do things on our own. And, he challenged me to resign from the bank teller job I had, which besides being woefully inadequate to support my family, was also not even close to my areas of calling or passion. But I didn’t want to listen. I was raised that you don’t give up one job before you have another lined up, and no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn’t seem to get another job.
For the longest time, I was completely unwilling to even consider that God would really ask me to give up our only source of steady income. And, I still don’t think he does so very often, but going into the fall of that year, I became increasingly aware that it seemed like God wasn’t speaking to me anymore, that he had withdrawn or lifted his had off my life. For as long as I’ve lived, I’ve almost always had a sense of God’s presence, at least faintly. But now, it seemed like he had stopped talking and taken a step back. More than anything else, this really began to get through to me.
As we continued to pray earnestly and seek the Lord’s face about our ever more difficult financial situation, one thing became clear – God had spoken to both of us earlier in the year and was really just going to wait until we decided to listen and obey. Interestingly enough, over the course of those months that it seemed like God wasn’t talking, he actually was in many ways…I just wasn’t listening. Over and over again, whether through our V•Group study, or through Pastor Dennis’ sermons, even through dreams, God kept inviting me to take the leap of faith, step out of the boat and walk with him on the water, so to speak.
As long as I wasn’t listening, things got worse and worse. We were trying to maintain the mortgage on our Tulsa house with no renters, plus pay our own rent, utilities and regular living expenses, plus pay our mounting credit card bills…there was just no way. Eventually something had to give. So we stopped paying things…first the credit cards, then our full rent, then some of our utilities…until finally, we had to stop paying our mortgage. Our lives became a nightmare of creditors, collection agents, worry, stress, fear, discouragement, doubt, etc. Clearly this was NOT the life God had called us to.
Finally, after exhausting every known avenue of financial assistance, we were on the verge of complete financial ruin. But really, I had gotten to the point that even if we lost everything, I just couldn’t keep on living with the feeling that I was outside of the will of God and in disobedience. So, I relented. I resigned my dead end job (although I gave an extra long notice of 6 weeks) and began to count down the days with expectancy that God was going to come through.
Except, my last paycheck came and went, and nothing seemed to change. Actually, things got worse. Way worse. We went through the holidays and into the new year (2008) with no income except the part-time work my wife could get. We ended up barely having even enough money just to buy food, let alone pay utilities, rent, credit cards or mortgage. The bank began the process leading up to foreclosure. It honestly looked as if we were going to end up on the street. But, despite having to fight the often-overwhelming waves of doubt and despair, God kept asking us to trust him…and we began to do so, in spite of the fact that our circumstances were screaming in our faces that God was a liar.
You see, although those circumstances didn’t seem to be changing, our hearts were changing…which is exactly what needed to happen. At this time, we felt challenged to take the Crown financial class at Victory and did so. That class and our classmates were such an encouragement and a catalyst for true change. And, as a result of God’s mercy and our obedience, in the course of the next 6 months, our financial situation changed so drastically it was nothing short of a miracle.
In short, nearly everything in our lives turned around: our house sold, the bank forgave $17,000 in debt, we moved into more affordable housing, God set me up with the best job I’ve ever had working for an awesome church (Victory) in an area I’m gifted at and enjoy (communication), Tanya got a job offer to work at a great Christian school (VWCS), we received a huge tax return through which we were able to catch up all our late payments and get on track toward being debt free.
Although we’re not all the way there yet, we’re definitely on our way!
Through this all, God really taught us to trust him completely, NO MATTER WHAT OUR CIRCUMSTANCES LOOK LIKE. More often than not, circumstances are big fat liars. The truth is that God is ALWAYS good, ALWAYS loving, ALWAYS perfect, ALWAYS has our best in mind, and EVERYTHING he does comes out of this. He is so trustworthy and faithful! We’re so thankful that he brought us here to Victory for so many reasons, not least of which is the way he has used Victory to teach us so much about trusting him with our finances and every other area of our lives as well! ~ Erik R.
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